jueves, 6 de diciembre de 2012

I did it MY WAY

And now, the end is here 
And so I face the final curtain 
My friend, I'll say it clear 
I'll state my case, of which I'm certain 
I've lived a life that's full 
I traveled each and ev'ry highway 
And more, much more than this, I did it my way 

No better way to describe this... So the end in near.. Or so they say... I do not believe so, but if it is I can say I lived my life my way. I really did. There is nothing I regret doing. Yes, I´ve done mistakes: but who hasn´t?

Is I have said far too many times, those mistakes make you learn, those falls make you rise up. These past weeks I've been hitting rock bottom, over and over again so the only way to go no it up. As someone told me some days ago, life is like a rollercoaster ride: there must be downs so that inertia can be beaten down and that the wagon  has enough energy to go up again...It sure is hard to be in the downhill, but the uphill makes it worthwhile... It is only that a little while and many times it depends on us how steep they both are.

If our world was really coming to an end this 21st of December, I´d continue living as I have: fullest. Trying not to came what people think of me... but still caring if they love me or if they don´t. Yes is does sound contradictory, but I still think it is not... People that know me, and I mean really know me, they are familiar with how much I love expressing my feelings. Sometimes I try not to, but I still do. When I care and love about someone I like telling it out loud, and so it hurts when many of them just don´t say it back. I know not all of us are comfortable with expressing ourselves in an open word way but I'm sure that I don´t speak for myself when I say that sometimes people do need to HEAR it, rather than assume that who they care about cares about them back.

The internet and media is flooded with: what would you do if you had one more day to live?... Many answer that all they would want it to tell all their loved ones that they love them. Well, if i was about to die next minute or so, i would not have the regret of not letting everyone I care know that I love them, or that I at least have showed them.

Life is too short, and I do believe that we came to this world to enjoy life, so that is just what I am trying to so. Yes, sometimes I have no idea what I want in life (I'm in that point right now actually)... but I'm happy to say that it is not because I don´t have where to choose from, but because I have too many options... Happiness is in ourselves, and sometimes we tend to blame on others because of the lack of it, but we shouldn't, there is no one else to blame but us: if we stop trying!

4 comentarios:

  1. You'll love the surprise that I'm going to give you...

  2. Me encanta leerte, Gina. Suelo encontrar tu blog en momentos en los que de verdad me ayuda ver lo que escribes. Quería hacer una reflexión parecida, cuando el dia estuviese más cerca y cuando sacase muchas cosas que tengo en la cabeza justo ahora.
    ¡Amé la analogia de la montaña rusa extendida! (la compartiré ;) )
    La canción queda tan bien con lo que escribiste...y creo conocerte lo suficiente para alegrarme de que, aun cuando hayamos estado separados por tanto tiempo, aún sigues el estilo de vida de Gina :)
    Te extraño mucho, madre osa de mí... (:3

  3. Te extraño hijosito! irás a aguas en las fiestas decembrinas?